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Foolishness and Freedom

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I decelerate and there’s a backfire with a loud roar of the motor between my legs as we approach the stop sign at the bottom of the mountain.

At the T in the valley we turn left. The three of us on our motorcycles start winding through the gears. The expanse is great, the road is straight and endless.

Not another soul in sight.

Freedom is dripping from the throttle. Each gear is wound to redline.

Euphoria sweeps over me. The metallic taste of adrenaline cleanses my tongue as I shift into sixth gear. Tunnel vision ensues and I glance down to see that I have eclipsed 150 mph.

Freedom. (Insert Mel Gibson in Braveheart screaming, “Freeeedoooommmmmm!”)

No worries, no cares. Just raw adrenaline. And I feel fine.

A freedom kind of fine.

No matter the foolishness in the speed, freedom and fine have come together.

As I ease and let the motorcycle coast my friends behind are just a tiny speck. Slowing down, the ‘freedom’ I sensed passes away.

These moments of freedom found sparsely in the corners of life, I always find myself relentlessly chasing.

Freedom from want.

Freedom from loneliness.

Freedom from pain.

Freedom from the unknown.

These freedoms I chase, but I only find temporary relief, never long lived.

The more I chase these ‘freedoms’ the more enslaved I feel. In my desperation to obtain freedom, it feels like a noose around my neck; the harder I drive towards senses of freedom, the tighter the grip of the noose.

Until I finally give up and turn to my Helper.

When I finally let go and trust Him, I realize that the freedom I have been chasing is found in my Advocate.

Freedom equals absolute trust in Christ.

There is great risk in putting absolute trust in Him.

Risk.

The risk (and foolishness) that was found in my motorcycle ride where I experienced a sense of freedom, is also found in the risk of pursuing God.

Following God and the trust that goes with it is risky.

God is in the risky business. He wants us to trust him with all abandon. For in our trust in Him is true freedom.

 

-Jesse

How God Became My American Dream

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Comfort.

We all want it.

We take loans out for it. We work for it. We tell certain people no for it. We say yes for it. We lie for it. We steal for it.

I have been on this hamster wheel chasing comfort. Sometimes I lie to myself and say that I’m not. But when there is a choice to be made, I almost always choose comfort. I’ll work hard for something with the promise of comfort at the end, only to be disappointed when comfort is not found.

When comfort arrives, the zest and zeal that was used in the pursuit of comfort remains when the comfort is satisfied.

Restlessness remains.

And this comfort aches and hurts because it tastes too much like apathy. It’s about has bitter as the feeling of lukewarm.

I chase this thing called the American Dream, that tells me if I work hard enough I will be able to obtain a happy and successful life that will give me, comfort.

I look around me and everyone is chasing comfort; the American Dream.

Often I also find that this is how I chase God, without fully realizing it. I see God as my American Dream. Except maybe I just look at Him as my God Dream. If I just work hard to please Him enough, obey Him enough, then He will grant me life long happiness with a golden arch to walk through with angels playing harps and my life will be happily ever after.

So simple and neat.

God is my American Dream.

A pathetic and self-centered comfort chaser, I relentlessly chase God.

I chase Him in the same way comfort leaves me feeling unsatisfied. I look at where I am at. I have nothing to complain about. There is no devastating illness consuming my family. No feelings of physical needs unmet. A house with three happy children, a wife who loves me, a secure job and a white picket fence to conclude the comfort.

Somehow in my ‘comfort’ I feel restless.

I wonder if the restlessness is how God intends it to be. If I could satisfy my American dream and achieve comfort, a real satisfying comfort, then…

I might not need God at all.